They were not all runner-ups, you’re falling for misinformation bullshit (and stop upvoting misinformation, people!). The assassinations were not presidential candidates. They were local politicians, running for mayoral or council seats.
Which is absolutely fucking horrifying in and of itself, don’t get me wrong, but what you’re saying is just not true.
Whatever you’re feeling, it’s all valid. Nothing is ever really black or white, and you don’t have to try and keep your emotions in clearly defined boxes. Just feel what you’re feeling, acceptance is key. Having conflicting emotions is a common and understandable thing.
For a more personal opinion: this idea that someone being related means you owe them something… well, frankly it’s asinine. We don’t choose our blood relatives, we get stuck with them. Some people win the family lottery, others get stuck with a bunch of assholes. Take the whole blood thing out of the equation, is what I’d say. Missing what you might have had is only human, but separate this from the people they actually were. I guess, ask yourself this: if you weren’t related to them, would you have chosen to have them in your life at all? Your real family is the one you choose. Some people just really aren’t worth your time, even if only because you have to protect your own mental health and happiness.
In your case, if I understand correctly, you’ve already decided not to have them in your life. Maybe it’s just that the finality of death makes you doubt your own choices in this? I’d say trust your instincts and the choices you made. We cannot control or change other people, only the way we respond to them.
Some mods can really bloat up the game. Tbh, even in vanilla, with all the DLCs… if you want to 100% it, it takes you quite a while. So let’s assume OP is a completionist. Then add for example, Sim Settlements 2, all three chapters and Rise of the Commonwealth. That’s gonna take you a while to finish, and I’m also going to guess that OP started a new game rather than an existing save every time a new mod and/or chapter was released. On top of that I imagine you’ll want to do a Survival run at least once, which can take quite a while. Just to name a few things. :p
Fallout 4 is just like Skyrim. There are so many mods, there is almost no limit to how much time you spend playing it. And because there are so many mods, you’ll always have new things to do.
I’ll tell you what I told the previous commenter: They were not all runner-ups, that’s misinformation. The assassinations were not presidential candidates. They were local politicians, running for mayoral or council seats.
Which is also disgusting, of course, but no, the cartels did not kill off all her competition to get her into office.