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Cake day: June 10th, 2023

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  • finished my last final yesterday, so it’s all smooth sailing from here on to January! excited to kick back, hang out with some friends, and try to enjoy the holidays. also happy i finally have time to game- been looking at baldurs gate and slay the spire, but i didn’t want that kind of distraction during my term :)


  • to preface this, i just want to say i don’t have any mental illnesses or disorders or anything, and so, if you do, this might not help at all. this is just my own perspective on life.

    i’ve never personally been very caught up in the whole our lives are meaningless, we are only a minor blip in time, nothing matters in the end, we are tiny and inconsequential in the grand scheme of things, etc. i think i used to care somewhat, but i sort of just realized at some point that, even if we don’t matter “overall”, that doesn’t mean our lives don’t matter at all.

    it doesn’t particularly matter to me that one day i’ll be dead and forgotten, because, well, i’m not dead and forgotten right now. right now i’m alive and experiencing things and have people who care about me. why should it matter that, in 100 years or so, i’ll be dead? why should that take away from the very real life/experiences/memories i have right now?

    same idea with size/scale related thoughts. we are tiny on a cosmic scale, our lives don’t matter because of how inconsequential they are, etc. but like… the only thing i have is my life and experiences. why should it matter to me what’s important on a “cosmic scale”? if it’s not concerned with me, i quite frankly don’t see why it should concern me either.



  • pretty good so far! have a couple hangouts scheduled with friends, some important paperwork to do that i’ve been slacking on, and a camping trip this weekend! also i’m pretty excited for all that. and i’ve been getting some time to work on my jacket project, which makes me very happy.






  • Mythic Greek World Rescue Fierce Barbarian Serial Killer Eager Apprentice Androids

    trying to find a way to work all these components together (especially the androids) is an interesting thought process, though i think having them be divinely powered is what i’m leaning towards. like, no one knows how they work, and so they kind of revere them.

    for the rescue plot, i think the eager apprentice sounds like the right one to need rescuing. too eager, not careful enough maybe. captured by serial killer i suppose, who could be an android for extra funsies, and the barbarian main character gets to go save them. probably all while realizing/coming to terms with the fact that they actually DO like the apprentices company and miss them, despite finding them very annoying in the beginning.

    i think it’s a cool idea and gets you to stretch some creative muscles with connecting some unrelated ideas and imagining what a story involving these elements might be like :)





  • i’ve been playing a khajiit in my current run through and have been really heavy on the rp, using khajiit speak mods and such. khajiit likes this, [character name] wants that, “this one”, the works. it’s gotten bad enough that i’ve caught myself almost replying to people in real life with khajiit speak rather than using “i” pronouns on multiple occasions 💀💀