Porn star called roxy raye! Super hot, has done some extreme anal stuff that honestly inspired me a bit to try it, she’s done some kinkier stuff as well, I’m honestly more an erotica person than a pornstar person but definitely a fan of her. Unfortunately she was in a really serious car accident. She’s ok afaik thankfully, but doesn’t do porn any more. Really should have recognized the gender envy from watching her for what it was but hey
Yeah, she’s like, the only pornstar I’ve ever looked for specifically tbh. Goals tbh
It’s blahaj
Ime, people who are curious about anal and want to try putting something up their butt aren’t big enough to take cucumbers (or at least they think so, you’re stretchier than you realize), and people who can take larger stuff have actual toys that are better in every way. Although, as improv dildos, they’re actually not bad imo. Better than most everything else I tried when I was a curious butt noob
Yeaaaaaaa! What about social studies/history?
There’s always someone who’s looking to interpret what you say as badly as possible so they can feel good about confronting you about it. I’m not being like “oh people these days are too sensitive”, just… some people take everything way too seriously and are looking for things to be upset over and I hate when that’s me. Really pokes my anxiety tbh. I want to stress it’s not like I’m out here making shitty edgy jokes and then getting upset when no one likes them, it’s just day to day comments. I dunno. I overthink a lot about whether I’m the problem, had an extremely negative self image for a long time where I blamed myself for every negative interaction I had and it’s hard to let that go.
Like, just happened
https://lemmy.world/comment/9888819
And like there’s genuinely good positive replies and interactions, but they don’t stick with me like the negative ones do.
I’m mentally fragile I guess, I just honestly do my best to be an understanding and accepting and positive person and it hurts to have somebody think the opposite, even though their opinion has absolutely no bearing on my life. I dunno, it’s… I guess it’s because I’m trying to be perfectly pleasing people generally and when I fall short of that impossible standard it hurts. I’m massively overthinking this, I know. Just something that’s been weighing on my mind.
I’ve been commenting less because it feels like the amount of vitriol is going up. Why stress myself with people’s responses when no one really cares what I have to say
You realize we all live on the surface of a sphere, right? Literally all of us are in non euclidean space
Yeah, and I completely understand that. Just from a logical perspective though, lets say the process happens after you fall asleep normally at night. If you can’t tell it happened, does it matter? I’ve been really desensitized to the idea of dying through suicidal ideation throughout most of my life (much better now), so I’m able to look at it without the normal emotional aversion to it. If teleportation existed, via this same method, I don’t think I’d have qualms about at least trying it. Certainly wouldn’t expect other people to but to me I don’t think it’s that big a deal. I wouldn’t do a mind upload scenario, but moreso due to a complete lack of trust in system maintenance and security, and a doubt that true conciousness can be achieved digitally. If it’s flesh and blood to flesh and blood though? I’d definitely try
I mean, if I die instantaneously and painlessly, and conciousness is seemingly continuous for the surviving copy, why would I care?
My conciousness might not continue but I lose consciousness every day. Someone exists who is me and lives their (my) life. I totally understand peoples aversion to death but I also don’t see any difference to falling asleep and waking up. You lose consciousness, then a person who’s lived your life and is you regains consciousness. Idk
I fucked up my bashrc once. I copied and pasted something meant to be copied and pasted off of our confluence, and it fucked up the path. So, when I’d boot, it’d put me into the desktop environment and nothing could run because the path was unset. Eventually figured out how to boot into shell, looked up the location of a text editor, and removed the offending addition. And then fixed the shit on confluence and checked the edit history to see who fucked it up so I could talk shit about them with my close coworkers.
I think the title of that video is “The Rules for Rulers”
We had an all hands on deck, world is ending bug one time. Like, basically the entire org got pulled onto it. In our product is a spreadsheet of activities, with dates and durations. Our customers can run a scheduling algorithm to adjust dates based off of durations and activity dependencies and relationships. This is super important. This broke. We have to make sure that activities don’t have circular dependencies, or otherwise scheduling will loop infinitely and fail. So, we basically dfs looking for a loop before scheduling, and fail it with a not really helpful error message. That loop checkimg got updated so it could properly provide helpful info in the error message. This change caused most real world schedules to have false positives for loops when checked, ergo, no ability to schedule. I found the cause of the problem but not the dependency structure that caused the issue, and ultimately decided it would be faster, cleaner, and overall better to rewrite the feature myself than to fix the original. So, I wrote the most beautiful damn depth first search of my life! Learned about the bug monday morning, had the fix good to go tuesday night, so that qa could test wednesday thursday for the hotfix merge deadline friday. Two days isn’t a lot to cover testing it, but I figure with every tester in the org pretty much available to pound on it itd be good enough. While I was working on the rewrite, other devs and qa were hunting down all the details of what happened to cause the bug, data structure wise, and coming up with good test cases. So, by the time it was ready, they knew what happened and had a much more thorough test plan. Well, it came down from on high that the fix would go into the next major release, not a hotfix, so it didn’t actually go out for 3 weeks after the monday the bug came in. Sigh. Well, I had fun writing it, and I consider it the cleanest, most beautiful and elegant code I’ve ever written. It used a stack of stacks! When I’m feeling shitty and useless at work, I go back and look at it tbh.
This is where the pictures originally from, I cropped it and touched it up a bit. In context it’s not as bad as it looks but it does resonate with me
A sane and reasonable take? On the internet?
it’s more likely than you think
Yeah, I’m on dating apps and actively trying to make connections these days. I still have some dark times, but they’re about as bad as my baseline was a year ago. Things are so much better in general, and when they aren’t I can handle it much better. I appreciate your concern!
Yeah, right? Why would they want me? May as well save us both the embarrassment and awkwardness by never interacting again, and save myself the pain by kicking down any romantic feeling or inclination I have so I’ll eventually stop having them and won’t have to feel bad about not being able to act on them
Fuck, sorry, I’m a lot better mentally nowadays but sometimes that still surfaces. Hard to stop over a decade of that kind of thinking and mental habits
Hahahahahahahaa
Just try to point it a bit more down at where you’re biking rather than straight ahead, tired of having to wear a cap when I run at night to block incredibly bright bike lights
I was a developer at Oracle. We got handed down sales goals. ??? It was a running joke in our org that oracle is a sales company and we just scramble to make what they’re selling. When I left half our org had been laid off or left. Only got two raises in the 5 years I was there. Not worth.