KeriKitty (They(/It))

Ohey, that’s better than I’d expected. Kinda cried a lot during the attachment style descriptions part. Good to know a bunch of people think I’m an evil monster who likes hurting people :3

Now when immediate-ancestors cause unhealthy attachment styles because of their unwellnesses, what do? I’m still really salty about how much of my life I’ve lost 'cause there was neither fairness nor proper care in my early life. Almost died (arguably several times) because She Who Must Never Be Questioned couldn’t handle the thought of anyone else “helping” me. Ungood situation. Plus ungood! Can barely-if-at-all attach any more and it only gets worse.

Two+ decades with little to no recourse or support in case of bad parenting seems like a bad way. Some (many?) won’t even know how to spot problems, then it’s like “Okay but they were having their own problems too” “Okay so what was I supposed to do? And what do I do now, living in somebody’s attic halfway across the country hoping I can get medicaid sorted out and get some kind of care ever and everything’s worse because my beginning gave me problems instead of solutions” :-\

… I’m just whinging into the wind I guess. Hard to not blame, I guess is what I’m saying. Need more help going around, and the armchair psychologists labelling and broad-brushing categories of people aren’t helping, I think. wobbles, having confused itself; flops over, has a nap

Aaahhh, this is horrifying! You’ve ruined my breakfast 🙀

Finally, my chance to say…

I use Arch, by the way :D

…Also, I tried Ubuntu and Mint and Fedora and some others (ages ago). Didn’t like feeling like everything I wanted to do was stepping on the toes of some software that was trying to manage it for me, but not how I wanted or I just didn’t want it managed for me.

I tend to alternate between Arch and Gentoo every few years. Sometimes Arch feels like it’s making assumptions and doing things its way more than I want, but then Gentoo takes ages to install or update anything, is a bit more fiddly. I’ll probably go back or maybe try out Funtoo again but for now I don’t have a CPU that won’t melt if I try to compile things (laptop-only booooo v.v!!) sooo Arch for now. :3 🤷

[Sarcastic ‘translation’] tl;dr: A lot of people who are relatively well-placed to understand how much technology is involved even in downvoting this post are downvoting this post because they’re afraid of technology!

Just more fad-worshipping foolishness, drooling over a buzzword and upset that others call it what it is. I want it to be over but I’m sure whatever comes next will be just as infuriating. Oh no, now our cursors all have to change according to built-in (to the cursor, somehow, for some reason) software that tracks our sleep patterns! All of our cursors will be obsolete (?!??) unless they can scalably synergize with the business logic core to our something or other 😴

Idunno where you got the idea that I’m for slurs or against disabled people but it’s kinda insulting, especially when you took “sometimes said as a derogatory word” and ran it like it’s the whole point or the article over the complaint that got its own paragraph (the Pulp Fiction bit) and shared the same sentence the disability bit is in, or the one that got the whole rest of the article (that it’s vaguely unprofessional). In fact I’m getting more irked every time I go look for evidence that I’ve misinterpreted it. Reading through a couple crap anecdotes to one that actually says something, we get a VP smirking at the name, which makes me wonder whether that person’s just a hateful prick smirking at a disability term or one of the many who giggle at any reference to anything associated with sex. The other three are just “some people dislike the name.” I conclude that the article does not take issue primarily with the name being an abusive term and wonder why you’d say that.

I muchly dislike careless use of abusive terms (I’ve probably got an essay or two ranting over the usage (and existence) of “crazy” and “insane,” for example) so I really don’t disagree that abusive terms should be treated much more seriously.

My entire point was that the author seems to be throwing things at the wall hoping something sticks, not seriously worrying some spooky scary BDSM critter (hi, it’s me :3 ) is gonna tie them up (of course not, the ropes are for me :3 ), nor that anyone’s getting bullied by the tool’s name or it’s irritating old wounds or really anything at all. I don’t think they’re taking any of this seriously. If the term’s abusive in a way that can’t be neutralized by taking it from abusers and making it something else (an arguably valid thing to do) then that’s worth actual serious discussion and not just part of one sentence in a six-page essay.

tl;dr: The article barely even mentions anything about disability and, I think, does so more as an excuse for itself than out of any serious concern for anyone. My complaint/point is, to be clear, exclusively that the article is crap and not that abusive terminology is okay. The article has failed to demonstrate any actual problem with the name itself other than handwavey “some people say” that it’s vaguely unprofessional.

WOOOOO RIVEN!! \ö/

This really isn’t the article it wishes it were :-\ It kinda reeks of “I’ve picked a thing I want to argue and now I’m going to make up an argument for it” down to admitting that good sources aren’t available (which makes me wonder whether there are no good sources at all or just no good sources that support the author’s argument).

Bonus unpoints for the BDSM reference, just because I hate seeing that term held up as a negative or scary kind of thing and I feel like and/or choose to believe that’s the point in such an unprofessional article, rather than simply meaning “Look, it means sex stuff and that’s unprofessional.” So there. Nyeh! 😝

Also, I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone who actually used or contributed to the GIMP (or intended to) complain about the name. I’m interested in seeing some actual data on that, if there is any. Personally I wouldn’t particularly mind a name change but I can’t say whether it’d get more attention and interest than it’d lose to irritating people accustomed to the current one.

There are mods for the first to make it more blaster-friendly! The impression I get is that blasters are much more effective in t he second game and are, it’s claimed (https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=1606481748), viable even for Hard playthroughs.

I’m playing on Normal; it’s mostly reasonably easy. Paying a bit more attention to keeping my defences in order would probably serve me well but I’ve not hit any walls or anything like that.

Knights of the Old Republic 2 :3 I’m doing a blaster Jedi run. It’s pretty neat, actually :3 I think I’ll play the first game next. Kinda want to get back into City of Heroes if this laptop runs it well and maybe only if I can acquire at least one adventure-buddy-critter to play it with 🤔 🤷

“It’s not my code” “It is now!”

Aww, some people have the sweetest parents :3

Almost instinctively downvoted after reading what’s gotta be a bot post or a bad joke. Gross.

I kinda wanna upvote this but it’s horrible so I’m posting this instead 😅

<.< When I was a teenager (maybe early teens? Idunno, I’m not super old 😅 🧓 ) that’s just how we made websites 😹

Still doomed 🙃 Stressing over another talk with my host, who is… kinda difficult, honestly. I can’t tell what’s available to me (in any context) nor what I’m even supposed to be able to accomplish in any amount of time but I’m supposed to “advocate for myself” even knowing there’s someone who needs this room so like… what the fuck am I supposed to do, beg to stay and somecritter who’s in the same situation I was gets beaten or shot by their father but I get another week of accomplishing fuck-all because I need six sorts of support I’m never gonna get but what I get is a week at a time and expectations to just get my shit together and get a job without even somewhere to stay while I work?

So I went from hopeless and in danger to hopeless and about to be in danger somewhere else. Worst part is, my host has some of the same major issues that I do, so every time we talk I feel like there’s some understanding there, or understanding to be had. She even recognizes it as an accomplishment for me to manage to get out and take the ten-minute bus ride to Burger King. Does not seem to recognize how screwed I am, how much of an impossible ask it is to just dump a pile of “resources” on me and think I’m gonna call them all, etc.

…I said I wasn’t gonna wall-of-text you lot <.<; Sorries! Please pretend it’s just a little nibble of whine 😓

Maybe you could use some magic to help that happen, Enchanter! :P

Not to press you but as a general clarification, I can (probably; TSA may eat me because of my expired license 😅) fly again if it’ll get me a chance I can actually use. Anxing just thinking about trying to manage that but whatever, right? 😅 A hope’s a hope, reason and reality can just stay out of it.

There is a program that will cut like $10 off of a landline bill and another that I think does $9 off of an Internet connection or bundle including that (which I believe is the one that can apply to cell service). Looks like that could get me down to like $40 per month 😅 Alternatives include services like TextNow, which will mail me a SIM for like $5 that I can use to provide them with all of my communications and in exchange I get ads and some level of service, assuming they don’t ban me for no reason (which is apparently a thing they do? Hmm.)

[Rantyramble] Everything feels like a huge mess when one’s life (well, what I had of one anyway) just gets spontaneously knocked over. Like, even phone service maybe sounds simple but there’s more to it just because of the mess I’m in. Waiting for mail may be a no-go if I have to go somewhere else before it arrives. Alternatively, I could “just” go to a carrier’s shop and sign up for $50+ (skipping the shenans I may have to go through to get the $9 off or whatever) but that requires that I find one (easy enough, GMaps that up) and get to it (could be hours on multiple buses and/or trains with transfers and no ability to track any of it because of my lack of connectivity) and hope my phone’s not locked up to the biofam account they’re using to screw me over or some other kinda crap I’ll have to/be unable to deal with. Bonus points for readers who remember that I’ve got nasty anxiety problems and can barely make a phone call without a days-long struggle and so even the one little issue may be impossible to resolve right now 🙃

Thanks, though something keeps keeping me from Factor 🤔 Maybe I’ll have to just try it some time, if I get a chance. CodeWars katas should be a good option for that. Hopefully they’re not all those horrid mathsy ones like Forth has! v.v

I had a week or two, then a place I’d hoped was at least semi-stable after that. Well, the place I was expecting to be my serious starting-point totally fell through the day before, so since this is week 4 of “a week or two” and my time’s up and I’ve got maybe one hope for somewhere to go I’m getting stressed and scrambly again.

(Yes, I’m that broken that I can’t turn a month into a life. I actually don’t know how I was supposed to have managed it and no one’s willing to tell me so I’m just kinda lost now. Other than being able to ride a bus. I can get to Knollwood and back. Yay. Got cut off from phone Internet access so not betting I’ll be able to get to or from anywhere else, but that’s kinda my big success dealing with my mental and life issues. Yay me. 🫠)

I’m doomed 🙃 But like, seriously. If anycritter wants a broken, janky thirty-something trans critter as a rescue or a pet, am available ö/ Not looking to pollute another comm with my mess so I’ll not post one of my signature walls-of-text this time <.< >.>

In other news, Sour Strips are pretty tasty. Uhm, I thought I was gonna see a bus fight a night or two ago. Buses here are kinda nice generally but sometimes the driver has to call some people out before there’s a beatdown on the bus :-\ Haven’t had to deal with any smokers on the buses, so that’s nice. Can’t say that about the light rail :| New (to me) city funs 😵‍💫