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Cake day: June 30th, 2023

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  • A couple weeks ago I got a random call from an 866 number whose caller id was Apex Tactical, as in the body cam and weapon gear manufacturer. I don’t have any involvement in or make any purchases in anything remotely related to them and it was kind of wild they didn’t leave a voicemail and I kind of just assumed it was a spoofed spam call but then that begs the question wtf why pick that company to impersonate lol














  • Thanks for both your posts! Interesting and helpful. I’ve never had psilocybin just by chance I haven’t had the opportunity even though I’ve done a lot of drugs and had my frat boy / psychonaut days but just by chance never got around to a shroom trip and now don’t live with easy access to good and plentiful drugs lol. I’ve had experience with what I was told was LSD but was likely some research chemical as well as two or three other experiences with what I was told from the beginning were research chemicals. It was so-so. I have a high tolerance to most every drug probably because I’m a bulky adult male with depression and ADHD my brain and body need a lot to react but for whatever reason this just does not apply to psychedelics. Applies to energy drinks amphetamine cocaine weed alcohol even like spicy or sketchy food (I have a strong stomach) you name it but nope every trip was like okay here it goes lol. I did experience ego death in at least one or two of them, it was cool. In one trip I not only lost the concept of myself but I lost the concept of how society works because I really wanted a sweet drink but the concept of using some paper or plastic from my pocket to exchange for it was just lost to me. I forgot the entire human bartering concept as a whole temporarily, lol. One trip was with frat bros and was chill and fun mostly comedic buddy stuff rather than any introspection or mental health stuff, one was with an ex and was okay but mostly visual and I combined with mdma to candy flip or whatever the kids called it back then with my gf we were doing what you think we would be doing, mostly, lol. One trip I was alone and did some introspection and experienced ego death but either the dosage or chemical wasn’t the right blend to gain any deep insight. Aaaand one trip was truly a trip as for some reason I accused my then roommate of messing with my laptop for some reason even though he was chill and wouldn’t do that and then I just went for an impromptu long distance walk around the college town I was in. Somehow someway the drug kicked in enough and I was just following what I thought were like clues where to go for the fun of it like a real life video game but for some reason I couldn’t shake the feeling like am I actually doing this am I losing it seeing patterns and stuff that aren’t there? Long story short I ended up on federal government property and I guess their security called the cops on me which several of them showed up because of just how bizarre my situation was and I was obviously out of it but in a psychedelic way like fear and loathing in las vegas not like booze or pot. But I guess after a decently long conversation they determined I wasn’t doing anything sketchy or dangerous or had any care about the location I was in and they took me to the hospital to detox etc. It led to my first of three total involuntary psychiatric stays (all around a few years of tumultuous time in my life for unrelated reasons basically mental health). Which btw those places mostly are the suck but that first one was the worst. I was still high and now being held in a hospital room alone under supervision waiting to figure out wtf they wanted from me and they somehow authorized the suicide watch 72hr involuntary hold every state has despite me being neither suicidal or homicidal, just obviously mentally not in a good place. But sorry for the wall of text, that was many years ago and thankfully because of not doing that poorly in my life anymore and literally having PTSD making me despise and avoid ever being in hospitals for any reason I haven’t been back in a while lol. Just specialists for me now. I really want to try microdosing at first to gauge my brain and body’s reaction to psilocybin since anything psychedelic or dissociative makes me nauseous my strong stomach puts in its immediate resignation. But I do also want a proper bigger dosage trip to connect with myself more spiritually and analyze myself and my mindset much better which I just like everyone and their uncle find psychadellics primo for.

    Edit: Oo I forgot! I already take and like mushroom based nootropics right now it’s lions mane and cordyceps. I get good results from them