8000 a year? That would be a huge help. Like it would alleviate almost all of my burdens.

Scrip is kinda low key a thing again. My SO works for wawa and there is definitely some scrip vibe. They have a company store, a points reward system, they will put you through school if you take classes that benefit the Corp, and the only way to move up is to basically bootlick management at weird company festivals.

It all has this very dystopian vibe of “everything within the corporation eco system” and my SO is a very principled women who is shy and kind and she refuses to take a step to elevate herself within the Corp, but getting a union going is pretty hard where we’re at, everyone is very much of the boot tasting, welfare queen bad variety.

What were we talking about?

It’d be Jesus for me. I love a highly principled man telling me what to do.

Look it’s a commie! Get that dirty hippy!

China is the high-water mark of human governance!!

Don’t forget to collect your college credits on the way out!

The wheels fell off this one for sure

Finally a man to fight for the people!

This is quite revealing. I’m hyper focused on some of my past and present behavior now and feel like a damn hypochondriac at this point.

It really does all start with you. Self acceptance, reflection, and mindfulness go a long way in dealing with others. Love yourself, others will love you. Practice it. Practice doing it in the wild. Don’t get hung up on how you come across. Life is a joke in the grand scheme. This mentality tends to draw people to you as well. Not sure if this is good advice but it’s worked for me. Also, know yourself and your limits. Set boundaries. Have realistic goals and expectations. People will disappoint you, doesn’t mean you have to disappoint yourself. 🙃

That’s some excellent advice friend.

That’s cause they’re all about my self interest🥰

Some of them do. That’s the problem. Those people at the core are fascists with a cult following, some manipulated, others true believers. Religious dogma that isn’t acceptance is dangerous af for the human mind.

Jesus was a leftist

He doesn’t even lie as far as I’m concerned.

“Were gon be shitty and tribal cuz muh nature”

The creation of the universe is a miracle ✨️

The creation of lemmy is an extension of that, and the boundaries of collective of thought.

Yea putting it on paper makes it real, easier to decipher, discard, and make true. I love writing and I’m far better at communicating that way than speaking. Public speaking for me is a confidence issue. It takes me forever to get comfortable with someone, and a little longer to be open and spontaneous. I’m good once I get there, but ultimately I’m better at writing than speaking. I find myself dumbing things down, for others and myself, to the point of intelligibility lol.

These kinds of posts are what I’m here for.

I relate so much to this. For me, I’ve largely become a recluse. This is the most I interact with people at large. I have not been diagnosed, in fact I have only seen a regular doctor once in my adult life.

My best friend was autistic, and I believe he rubbed off on me in a way, in how I think about the world, and myself. That’s my only explanation.

So I really feel your emotions here, as I’m super similar to you. I’m not sure what your best move is, but I just want to tell you that you are far more beautiful than you allow yourself to be, and no person is worth you suppressing yourself. Water it down, sure, but I think you should try to open up to the roomies a little at a time, and you may be surprised to find that they find you to be a wonderful human being, and extremely relatable.

Now I know this approach doesn’t work with everyone, trust me, which is why I am very picky with who I surround myself with, but I think you have a unique perspective and experience that could better this world.

Thanks for opening up, and I’m sorry if I was unhelpful, I just thought I’d say HI and let you know I appreciate you.

I was literally just realizing that now. I just checked inbox for the first time, and it’s pretty annoying. I would mind less if there was at least the entire comment chain within that top comment, cause I often forget what the hell I even said. I was using jerboa before, and there are features I’m really really missing. Sync would be great for perpetual lurker, but I’m addicted to commenting lol. No post creation also a drag, so I’ll just use sync and jerboa in tandem for now.