Its probably something to do with being autistic but IDK.
I’m not being rational anymore since the election, I’m just giving in a lot to bad impulses because I don’t have much fight in me anymore because before I kind thought things were worth fighting for. Now I look around at the average stranger and think “7/10 times that person either voted for Trump or failed to vote meaning I probably hate them.” And then like, half of the remainder who voted Harris were probably libs that were anti-Bernie Sanders in 2016 and 2020 so I don’t think I’d be happy to meet them either. Its not good for my mental health and there is no solution but suffering a now pointless fucking existence.
I know other thoughts floating in my head are new as well and I’m not super thrilled about them.
I owe you literally nothing. I owe the world literally nothing. I could just off myself out of spite and I’d be 100% in the right because I literally did not choose to be born, no individual chooses to be born.
That said, I earnestly wanted the world to be better. I used to have a small sliver of hope for that. My resentment toward politics comes from seemingly having to swim up a fucking waterfall while people who ought to have been my allies hold my ankles.