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    1 year ago

    No, that’s nice to say but it sucks. If I could get rid of it forever I would. I’m so tired of myself all the time it’s exhausting. Imagine just cleaning the damn kitchen without ending up half buried in the closet two hours later with the half full dishwasher hanging open in the dirty kitchen. Imagine “building habits” without needing 50 timers screaming at you. Oh my god can you imagine knowing you had to do something today and just relaxing until it’s time? But nah. I gotta agonize over the time all day to make extra sure I don’t go into the TV static void and end up an hour late. It’s actually awful. I just want to function like everyone else without having to put every drop of energy I have into it 24/7. I just want to wake up and know for sure that I can get all my stuff done that day for once.